I’m writing to you today from the house of one of my very best girlfriends where I’m spending time with her, her husband, and their newborn twin baby girls. For me, it’s heaven!
I adore babies – always have and always will. They’re so incredibly precious to me so it’s a gift and a privilege to spend this weekend (as I have the past several weekends since they were born) with my friends and their twin girls.
Watching how my friends parent their girls so lovingly and consciously, I’m both deeply touched and yet also reminded that for so many of us – including many of my clients – this supportive, kind, attuned parenting may have been lacking some or all of the time growing up.
We may have grown up in homes where we learned to introject (e.g.: internalize) negative, critical voices and along the way, this is how we began to speak to ourselves as adults.
Can you relate?
If so, at some point in your own individual healing or personal growth journey one task you may likely face is learning how to more effectively reparent yourself which includes both acting and speaking to yourself in kind, supportive, loving ways.
I’ve written about the act of reparenting yourself before and in today’s post I want to share more about why it’s so critical we actually speak kindly to ourselves (aloud and in our heads) and offer up some concrete, tangible action steps you can take to treat yourself lovingly, in the very way a good-enough parent might do.
Speaking More Kindly to Yourself Is Critical. Because, Neuroplasticity.
Why speak more kindly to yourself? In a word: neuroplasticity.
Now, the bad news is that, for many of us who came from less than loving, attuned, and safe childhood households, the neural pathways we may have developed may include deeply ingrained patterns of negative self-talk, self-doubt, future-doubt, other-doubt, and world-doubt, etc..
But the good news is this: the brain is plastic and can change up until the day we die if we learn new skills, memorize new information, or provide ourselves with new experiences.
Each time you have a repeated experience, whether negative or positive be they thoughts or words about yourself, you deepen the neural grooves in your brain. When you unintentionally or intentionally create a different experience for yourself, you create new neural pathways. New positive experiences and different kinds of self-talk create new, perhaps more functional neural pathways.
That’s why actually practicing speaking kindly and lovingly to yourself is so critical. It’s not just some pop-psychology-personal-growth-movement advice; it’s at attempt at harnessing the neuroplasticity of your brain to help you create change in your world.
And, as a psychotherapist, I truly think that this longed-for life change can begin when we change the way we speak to ourselves, interrupting the unconscious or conscious critical, derogatory voices we’ve introjected and embodied as habit, and instead try on new, more supportive ways of speaking to ourselves.
So You Know You Have To Speak More Kindly To Yourself. Now What?
If, in reading through you find yourself nodding your head saying to yourself, “Yeah, okay Annie, that makes sense but what I do actually do about this?”, I want to suggest four things:
1) Bring awareness to what is.
2) Interrupt your negative self talk with kinder self-talk.
3) Cultivate kinder re-parenting voices to achieve that better self-talk.
4) Channeling those kinder voices, say these kinds of things to yourself when you’re tired/crabby/sad/mad/scared.
5) And note, this will all feel uncomfortable at first.
1. Bring your awareness to what is.
The first step in any process of change is bringing our awareness to what’s actually happening. In this case, it’s the way you’re currently talking to yourself. So as a first step in this process, I want you to begin tracking yourself very, very closely.
Notice the messages and the tone of voice that you’re currently speaking to yourself with: Is it kind, loving, patient, gentle, unfailingly supportive? Or is it critical, demanding, aggressive, shaming, blaming, and downright cruel? If this voice had a body, a form, what would it look like? What caricature or archetype might it embody?
Really get to know who’s piping up in your mind and emotional body as a default. If it’s an unkind, critical voice, don’t despair. Like with most patterns and behaviors, you come by this voice honestly and we can imagine that at some point it was probably trying to serve you. Now it’s time to try and interrupt that voice.
2. Interrupt your negative self talk with kinder self-talk.
As you bring your awareness of the ways you talk to yourself closer and closer to the moment it actually happens in, your next task will be catching yourself, pausing, and substituting a kinder, more loving form of self-talk.
Simple, but not always easy.
It’s particularly challenging if you’re not sure how and what to say to yourself as a kinder, more loving alternative. So read on…
3. Cultivate kinder re-parenting voices to achieve that better self-talk.
If speaking to yourself kindly and lovingly is foreign for you, it’s your task to begin to internalize some different kinds of voices. If we have those supportive, nurturing voices surrounding us in childhood, that’s great. But if we didn’t, it’s never too late!
If there’s no one in your immediate life who can provide a good model for kind self-talk, think about some fictional, real life, or pen and paper models and mentors you might know of.
Each of these souls brings such wisdom, gentleness, and kindness in their interactions. I consider them models and mentors (none of whom I’ve met) in how to speak more kindly to myself. Who are some examples of people who might model kinder self-talk for you?
4. Channeling those kinder voices, say these kinds of things to yourself when you’re tired/crabby/sad/mad/scared.
Below is a list of sample phrases you could imagine practicing saying to yourself as you begin the neuroplasticity-critical work of re-parenting and speaking more kindly to yourself. And please know that this list isn’t exhaustive; it’s simply meant to jog your own creativity and loving, self-kindness in a way that works for you in the nitty-gritty-real-life of your day-to-day:
- “I’m so proud of myself for being brave and stretching myself today in that work meeting today. That wasn’t easy but I did it.”
- “It makes sense that I’d be tired and crabby, it was a hard day! It’s okay that I’m in a bad mood.”
- “It’s not fair or realistic to compare myself to those other people on Facebook. I don’t know their story and they probably didn’t have to deal with what I do. From where I’ve come from, I’m doing just fine.”
- “No matter what happens, I’ll be okay, I trust myself to start over again.”
- “I made a mistake today and that’s okay. That makes me human. I did the best I could and I’ll try again tomorrow.”
- “It’s okay that I’m jealous of people taking fancy vacations on Instagram. It just means this is something I’m longing for, too. I’ll get there. It’s just not now.”
- “True, I’m exhausted but all those years of study are paying off and I’m proud of myself for being so hardworking.”
5. And note, this will all feel uncomfortable at first.
Look, I want to acknowledge that, as you begin to practice speaking more kindly to yourself, it’ll perhaps feel awkward and possibly forced. That’s okay. That’s actually perfectly normal and natural.
Like how most of us have one intuitive way of clasping our fingers when we hold our hands together, when you consciously attempt to clasp your fingers the other way it will feel a bit awkward and weird, right? You’re changing your patterning and it’s going to feel awkward.
The same thing is true with practicing a different way of speaking to yourself. So be patient, know that it will be awkward at first, but continue practicing until it feels easier and more normative to speak kindly and lovingly towards yourself.
In doing so, you’ll be re-wiring your brain and creating new, more functional neural pathways for yourself and this, in turn, can have a beneficial impact on the rest of your life.
Wrapping this up.
And until next time, take very good care of yourself.